(shot through the heart, and you're to blame. you give love a bad name. i played my part and you played your game. you give love a bad name. ~BON JOVI)

okie doke... fun fun fun. :)
i guess now that he's figured this out, the guy (okay, i realize i never mentioned his name, but his name isn't even worth mentioning. ass....) thinks i'm a total moron and that i play games. no, that's not how i roll. guys play games on me. whatever. but i told him i wasn't comfortable being with him and that i didn't want to be until i did feel comfortable. and i didn't really like him much, after i realized that i liked him just for the fact that he liked me. so he thought i was a total shitbag for showing interest. well, sorry, kid. if he doesn't realize that i'm not the person he thinks i am, then he isn't worth my time. i just think that it's total bull that he can't come to terms that i don't want that.
whatever. his loss, i guess. i'm not waiting around for him to come around.
anyhow.... i saw The Hunger Games yesterday with Laura and my sister, Helene. i won't give it away to the people who haven't read the book or seen the movie. but i cried, i laughed, my heart stopped, i got scared so bad i nearly pissed myself, and my heart raced. it was one of the very best movies i have ever seen. high emotions (which is totally key and really evident in the book, too) aside, i think it's still a great movie. i would watch it over and over and over again. i think that i'd give it 5 stars. that amazing. :-) :-)
today is pretty grey and cold. i'm thinking about going to lunch with a friend of mine whom i haven't seen in... years. well, i saw her once last year for about five minutes, but i don't think that counts as actually hanging out with her. i know. but yeah. i mean, it'd be nice to sit down and catch up and hang out. it's been so long that we had had the chance to do that. so, i guess that it'd be well deserved, whether or not we have the money for it.
but whatever. life is what it is. what happens happens for a reason and we can't explain it any better than that. just make life what you want it to be and you'll be happy.
i hope so, anyways.
okay, i think i am done for now. not a long post, but i don't have much else to say.
be creative, be who you want to be and most of all, be HAPPY!