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Thursday, 31 May 2012

(have you ever hated yourself for staring at the phone? you're whole life waiting on the ring to prove you're not alone. ~P!NK)

okay, so, i'm not one who usually admits to being that girl who falls apart for every guy. let alone being that girl who does fall apart. BUT i do like this guy enough to be falling apart a little bit. just a bit. but whatever. i'll live.
he's supposed to pay me back the $10 i loaned him, so i'm hoping for a text or something asking me to meet him somewhere. whatever. i just ... i think i need some time to just chill. if he does text me, asking me to meet him up, i'll be like "i thought you were planning on texting me sunday about hanging out... just hit me up then." and just leaving it alone. i don't know. i think that's the best way. you know? i just want.... i don't know, i want to be normal again.
and the past month and a half, there's been enough guy drama that i think i need to just back off and be done with it for a minute. i need to breathe and let things happen. because i'll be happier that way, i guess. i don't know.
let's wait and see how things go. i can't predict the future. i can only hope.


  1. Charly, you remind me of me when I was younger... I desperately wanted someone to want me and I didn't feel as if I was enough. It's only recently that I do feel as I am enough. I am tired of the men drama, I love my David but even he can be a roller coaster for me at times. We first and foremost have to love ourselves, otherwise we will never be able to love anyone else. I think you are amazing Charly:)

    1. thank you, Launna. :)
      and i think i realize that. i know who and what i am. i won't change for anyone (but for myself, obviously). i love who i am. but sometimes it's hard.
      i do have to say, though, that i always look forward to your comments, Launna. i always go from :( to :) when i see i have an email and it's a comment on a post from you. :)