It's a rough day today. I don't know. I've been having a rough week. I woke up Monday in a state of emotional distress. Well, not so much emotional distress as being depressed. I haven't really bounced back yet. I don't know why... I'm just in a state.
I haven't been like this for this long in months. It's been since January. Yep, it's been nine months since I've felt like this for this long. But, like last time, I'll get over it. Hopefully.
But let's hope, that unlike last time, I don't try anything. I have a good support system here, so I'm not all too worried about it. I just need to talk to someone. Because talking is good. I am not holding it in or anything. And when I talk about it, there'll be someone who can help me.
Let's be real, though. I've gotten over it without talking to anyone. I've gone so long putting on a front and not showing how I feel that I've faked it until I made it. Nobody thinks I can be depressed because I'm generally a happy and bubbly person. But sometimes even the happiest people go through it. Beneath that smile, you don't know the world of hurt or sadness someone is hiding.
I'll be okay. It's just a funk. I just got to put on a smile and fake it until I make it reality. It just sucks that I have to struggle until then.