I totally love this song, especially right now, when I'm in a funk and kind of going through a bunch of sh*t.
(names've been changed)
i got agitated and frusterated and - to be honest - pissed at a "friend" of mine because every time i would try to make plans with her, she would ignore me or not say anything. but with anyone else, she'd be all over plans. and, as of late, i've been put on the back burner, second to her boyfriend, to her new bff, my sister. i got sick and tired of waiting around for her to decide whether she wants me around. between texting me less, and only hanging out with me when other people are around, and putting conditions on our friendship when we were like sisters... it pushed me to my breaking point. i got so mad that i told her i'm done with the bullshit and to text me when she finally made up her mind. that is, if i really wanted to be her friend, if i gave enough of a shit to say or do anything. but frankly, i hate it when i confront someone and they back down, whether it be in person or on a phone or whatever. and then ... my sister just won't shut up about this chick. "oh, jess this, jess that." "i'm doing this with jess." "oh, i'm stealing jess's whatever." it's like, whatever, i don't care. just don't talk about her in front of me unless you say straight up "i want you to be friends again with jess" or "jess wants to be your friend again, talk to her." just because she's your new BFF (ohmygod, nobody EVER saw that coming!! really?) doesn't mean you have to obssess over her.
everyone says "grow up" or "let go". first of all, how cliche is that? second, come on, it's not like i've heard that before.
i've stopped caring, i have the whole "i don't give a shit, leave me alone" thing going... i'm just done with the bullshit and the drama and and and... that this seems like the best course. i've cared too much, and i've been hurt. now i don't care enough. i'd rather be that way. i've had higher expectations for people, and i've been let down... i have little to no expectations for anyone. now i can't get let down. i've loved enough for four people and i've been taken advantage of. now you have to deserve my love.
it's just how i am now.
I am done. If you want someone to care, don't come to me, because I'll just let you down.
"but I will not forget
the way I feel right now"
be creative. be yourself.
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I only heard this song for the first time today and totally fell in love with it. It's such a good song. :D I don't know why, but I just love Rob Thomas. His songs are always just great.

Nickelback- When We Stand Together

I love this song. it's so totally true. we always say we want to change, but don't do anything. try to change the status quo, be that someone who was different.

I totally agree.

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okay, I'm not doing a song today, but I am promoting my facebook page. which is something i wouldn't do otherwise (ahem... something I wouldn't do if it were someone else's page). So, check it out!!! and hit "like"!!!! :D please and thank you!

L()VE THIS S()NG! totally awesome! lol. and the video is totally epic. :D
anyways, my birthday was good. my party friday night was better than i'd expected. i ordered more pizza than neccessary, but better than getting not enough, i think. a few people stayed till almost one in the morning. way awesome. tryin'a have another get together next month with pretty much the same friends. :D should be a great time. at least, i hope so. right?
well, i don't feel any different, now that i am 20 (gasp!!!). but i think that may change as this year goes on, however. i guess only time will tell (i don't like it when people say those kinds of things, becase it gets kind of annoying, but whatever).
anyhoooooo....... i'm writing here because i can't think of anything cool to write. because i'm just not that cool at the moment. so, i'm just busting out here.
PARADISE! :D
i guess i am going to go, though. i do have some other stuff to do today, aside from spilling my guts out on the computer. BLAH!
be creative.
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okay, so valentine's day was yesterday and i went to the movies with my friend. we went to see the "titanic" originally but.... yeah. we saw "the woman in black" instead. i didn't stop mumbling "omigod" through the scary parts. which was through most of the movie. so there'd be steady streams of me saying "omigawd" for about five minutes, my hands covering my face. insanely scary but a must see if you like horror.
anyhow, a break in festivities and tomorrow is my birthday. my mommy is making me crepes (yummy french dessert. kinda like pancakes but different) before she goes to work, i hope. and friday is my birthday party with my friends. my mom is making me a galette des rois for me and my friends. i know it isn't the Epiphany, but hey! i like me my cake. i'm gonna be soooo happy. :D
anyhow, i'm so excited for this week, whereas two weeks ago, i was all "i don't want to be twenty yet." but now that my birthday is very nearly here, i can't wait.
i am trying to make a weekend with my friend, laura, so we can do a movie marathon. we are gonna rent several movies and just watch movies all weekend. but it's gotta be when we both have the time and whatnot. maybe during the summer. but i have no idea. it's as maybe for now.
i can't believe how fast this week is going. i mean, it's already wednesday. it feels like it should've been only like two hours ago that i got off Zumba an hour after i went to work and taking my brother home from tennis. but that was monday. and wednesday is, for me, about ten hours from being over.
and tomorrow is gonna go by faster because it's my birthday. i am just..... i don't know. i can't help but feel like this week should go by slower. but time won't slow down. not for anything.

be creative and be fun.
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