It's been three and a half months since I last wrote. And a lot has happened. There's kind of a lot to sift through right now.
So, I have been working. I finally got a job at a pharmacy in a hospital. That I ended up leaving because there was so much. I don't know. I just felt like I couldn't ask questions or learn anything or, you know, grow in that environment. Well, I mean, I probably could have. But the environment that the pharmacist made almost felt oppressive. And I probably didn't handle it the right way, nor am I going to try and say that I did. But less than a week later, I landed a job at my local Walgreens as something they call a designated hitter. I'm working on the front end and in the pharmacy. Which is good, because I still get pharmacy experience.
The biggest difference between the hospital and Walgreens is that, at Walgreens, everyone is very open and accepting, welcoming. I can ask questions, and learn, and make sure I understand everything. I feel like it's a place where I can flourish and become someone, whereas, at the hospital, I felt like I couldn't do any of that. I feel like Walgreens is a really good environment for me. And that's what I appreciate.
I'm working on bettering myself. Part of it is trying to be healthier. I'm trying to eat healthier - eating more fruits and veggies, eating the right foods, etc. - , starting to try and get out and move more. Be more mindful of what I do to be healthy.
I'm thinking about going back to school. I know, I know. Shocker. It's been so long since I've been to school that it's kind of nerve-wreaking thinking about it. But I think it'll be worth it in the end, because who doesn't benefit from getting a higher education?
I am trying to be more mindful of the world around me. Trying. That part is the hardest part, to be honest. But I'm working on it. Slowly but surely, I will get there.
I think the most important part, though, is accepting who I am and loving me for who I am. That is proving to be the most important part. And, frankly, it's not like I give myself the chance to do that. I think it would be so much easier for me to focus on losing weight and being healthier if I learned to love and accept myself. It would make so much difference in my life. But it's hard. And I don't really know how to. But I am figuring it out - and that's all that matters.
Okay, it's getting late, and I think I should sign off now.
Have a great night, blogisphere.
